Alright, this is quite upsetting. Cuz JFM's leaving tmr, and yea, I've known her for slightly more than 2 years and she's been really a joy bringer! I'll miss her immensely while she's gone, oh well. Yea, we had a mini gathering just now at Marina Square and subsequently down the esplanade path. Many pictures up on fb(;

Anyhow, life in AJ hasn't been too shabby. Well it's really tiring, but not too bad I guess. It kinda drains the energy out of me, so I'm sorry, my friends who've found that my energy levels have plummeted drastically over the month. Well, I hope I get used to JC life soon.

PE in AJ really really sucks. We just run laps, so for now we're at 6 laps. I hope they don't raise it to 8 in the near future); then after running, it's all the circuit-ish stuff, like crunches and IPUs. I really don't enjoy PE!

Anyhow, so I should start from orientation. Orientation was quite HEH HEH, we, AGENA, OG04/09 were second best OG, and we were all extraordinarily high! Yea and we're really bonded together as an OG! Oh, our 4 OGLs were Jason, Wee Siong, Zhi Yu and Yao Xin. They're all really hyper and enthusiastic, so it was so awesome. We practically just walked about school screaming.

Eventually, we got split up as new classes, though it was believed that our OG's our class); so we were all upset and wrote a petition which got beaten down before we even got it to be read! A waste of our efforts man! Yea, So now I'm in 30/09 with some people from Agena. Agena was split into 3 groups to join 3 classes. Yea, so 30/09 has a large number of PRCs, but everyone's really nice and kind to each other despite the different nationalities! Although I won't say that the Agena people are completely bonded to 30/09, I would say that we're fitting in nicely(;

So, school has been tiring, work load's increasing and all but I hope I'll be able to cope! This weekend, there's homework for EVERY subject, and there's even a civics worksheet which I didn't have enough time to complete.

I miss Crescent);
I miss my group);
I miss the teachers);
I miss wearing the yellow and peacock blue uniform);

I will adapt to AJC.
I will try to love AJC.
I will try enjoy AJC.

{ 11:56 PM }

Heh, alright. I've been through one week at AJC. School's been quite slack I guess. I can't wait for lectures to begin, honestly! Oh, Monday's the start of orientation week!

My dad thinks the uniform is gorgeous but I'm just not interested in it! What more can I say about blue and grey. Oh, but SOME people think my skirt is very short); And my brother says I look like a primary school kid being forced to go to JC in it. What he means is, I don't look intelligent enough for JC and that I look too small for JC);

Heh, I've met many many snrs in AJ!
Honestly, I'm not enjoying JC life. It's makes me feel very old. And it makes me feel so stupid! I couldn't understand the maths and chem! I hope I grow smarter in a week, that'll help alot.

ANYHOWS, SANKARI D/O SINNASAMY IS IN AJC WITH ME. She did not run off to Australia! This is awesome news but I have a feeling she might leave halfway through the school year!

Currently, I'm craving for chocolate! and a nice cold drink, Happy me, happy show, happy monkey king(;

{ 8:59 PM }

Alright, I'm quite happy with my O level results(;

Heh, today I went out with Joy! It was fun(; She thought we were supposed to meet at j8 and I thought we were meeting at thompson plaza! Anyhow, we had swensens! It was awesome and I had my MALTED MILK SHAKE (SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE)!

Then I brought my hamsters home with Joy. Thankyou Joy for taking in my darlings for 10 days! Oh and to mention, I bought my New Moon (moon moon moon).

Then we went to Kinokuniya, and then borders, and then liang court's kinokuniya! and I bought Starbucks!It was SPLENDID, INCREDIBLE, MAGNIFICENT, AWESOMEEEEE! I'm so happy!

Anyhow, my O level results:
L1R5- 7
L1R5 after deducting CCA- 5
English-A1
Chinese- A2(;
E maths- A1
A maths-A1
Physics- A1
Chemistry- A2 D;
Pure Geography- A2);
Combined Humanities- A1

{ 9:20 PM }

Well last night I went to St james with candice, eva, jfm, sinying and isabel.
erm at first it was quite alright, talking and moving around and sitting about.
then on the dancefloor place, erm, well it was very odd.
Uh huh, okay I met this girl with very low self esteem, and very little confidence I guess.
I was staring at Jfm, then she popped out from no where
and wanted to fight with me.
Honestly, I think it was more of bullying than getting her justice back whatsoever.
Well she probably thought I was staring at her but, okay.
I was awfully shocked and enormously scared cuz she almost ripped my sleeve off.
Yea and she was railing at me in some incomprehensible way.
It was so horrifying. So I went home and Eva's daddy sent me home.
Then I called Rab and started bawling my eyes out.
So today my eyes are so puffy and sore.

{ 12:11 PM }

PROM is over.

{ 2:42 PM }

After a GAZILLION years, I will update my blog!

{ 8:14 PM }

IT'S ALMOST CHINESE ORAL!


so I've been brushing up on my chinese!


I LOVE FAHRENHEIT!;D
























Aren't they amazing! I mean like,

SO HOT! super hot! HEH HEH



AND AND TANG YU ZHE


























HOHO. I'm in love with all five! muahaha.
My chinese better improve soon!
Okay so what I've watched so far:
1.花样少年少女
2.Hana Kimi jp
3.公主小妹
4.half of 翻滚吧！蛋炒饭

so I've watched alot alrdy I guess!
I shall get down to studying again.
OH MAN GEOGRAPHY
OH MAN HISTORY
OH MAN SOCIAL STUDIES
OH MAN AMATHS
OH MAN PHYSICS
OH MAN CHEMISTRY

heh. oh and we stepped down alrdy!
I'm probably going to miss my sec ones.
They probably wouldn't miss me but yea.
heh, thankyou very much for the erm,
cake, cookie and brownie I think!
heh, I appreciate it;D (though I can't eat it)
And the sec 2s' paper thing! it's pretty(;
and the sec 3s for being party planners!
THANKYOU! goodnight(;

(wanxuan, I updated alrdy! Aren't you proud of me?)

{ 11:02 PM }

9 june;
we celebrated sinying's birthday!
yea so me and her went out first and my job was
to distract her and then bring her to the rooftop.
SHE WAS SO DIFFICULT.
but I still love her!
okay so altogether we celebrated her bday.
I think she was happy(;

11 june;
okay had the weird surgery thing and erm wasted my day away.
then at night I got hospitalised. and then discharged at the next afternoon.

OKAY but now I'm happy since I can stare at hana kimi(;
And candice went overseas! haha.
SHE BETTER GET ME A PRESENT;D
and joy should be back(;
she said she got me gum.
Alright fine, I ought to go do homework.

{ 1:54 PM }

The mango trees underneath my flat bloom every year, but it's the first year I can remember where I see mangos on the trees without Siti by my side. She's been like my mom for so long, doing all those weird things with me and taking care of me for almost 8years. oh man, I miss her.

I'm thankful I have so much, but still I wish she was here with me, it's like she's part of my family);

Anyhows, chinese Os is half over and I did badly. Probably a B3); okay I'm going to retake unless I get a 1. Okay I want to watch Hana Kimi soon.

{ 5:28 PM }

I really hate being alone. I dread the feeling of pure loneliness. I feel like I'm going through a crisis already.

It's been scary facing the bare and empty walls. I've always thought I was used to the silence, I've always thought I could get used to being independent in its own freaky way.
The tv's switched on most of the time, blasting, if not my phone'll be playing songs. It's really simple to fill up the house with noise.
The more I fall, the more I need you so.

Sometimes I hate the way no one is at home everyday. I hate not having someone to call, just to tell that I'm reaching home soon. Imissyou.

{ 9:19 PM }

alright, so it's been a million years since I've blogged.

well CNY is here but it's just another holiday to me.

My Noj escaped last night and he's nowhere to be found.
My Siwel died last month.
My Welsi gave birth to six pups (fathered by Noj).
I hope they're all happy.

I watched CJ7 last night. it was basically just an average movie.

On a brighter note, on wednesday,
me, eva, rab(a-dub), candice and isabel (eyefreckle)
went out to play! we wanted to go skating but we didn't in the end
so we watched 27 dresses.
It was such a cute movie(;

I love kim, how random.
I love wan xuan, my ex-partner.
I appreciate jiahui for her always occasional kindness.
I love candice,my daddy.
I love rab,my rubber ducky.
I love eva for being pikachu.
I love feli, for being furry.
I love sinying, my emokid partner.
I love isabel for entertaining me.
I love all my squadmates, for being my squadmates.
I love anyone I missed out, cuz of whatever they've done.

I miss my pets, why did they leave);

{ 10:49 AM }

hello!(;

haha, so cool lahh!
THANKYOU CANDICE, RAB, BEATRICE, YEETING AND LEWIS!
hoho! yay so cool!

so I was supposed to meet beatrice at 12 for lunch.
but I was late of course, like always.
so we ate at cafe cartel like happy kids.
had a nice long lunch and everything too!
so after that we went up to my house.

When I reached home and dingdonged on the door,
erm, they were inside and all, and it was really sweet!
of course, lewis wasn't there lahh.
haha, there was a cake and everything all so sweet!
ohh, and the cake was swensens and all!
and at first they couldn't find the knife,
but later on I found it in the fridge!(;
I'm so touched(;

{ 10:01 PM }

all passed then.
but still, that ___ ___ was still really _______.

And besides, y'all keep saying we're unreasonable.
but think about it, how reasonable are y'all?

{ 8:54 PM }

Well, annual camp's over alrdy!
I've just got to say I'm seriously beat);
I hardly slept much during camp.
GOOD NIGHT ALL. I'm off to bed alrdy.

{ 8:52 PM }

I know you're tired,
I know you're worn,
I know you're torn
You're losing all your hope
'Cause you're a long way from home

Oh, I know you're worried
I know you're scared.
I'd like to put my arms around you
And tell you I care.
Hope is in Heaven, not far away
Just close your eyes, he hears what you say.
Feel him around you,
He's everywhere
Reachin' to touch you,
Know that he is there.
Deep in the heart of a war,
He hears a Soldier's Prayer.

Ask and he'll protect you,
guide where you go.
Keep you from evil that tears at your soul
Oh,speak to the Father,
say what's on your mind
It just takes a moment,if you'll take the time

Hope is in Heaven, not far away
Just close your eyes,
e hears what you say.
Feel him around you,
He's everywhere
Reachin' to touch you,
Know that he's there.
Deep in the heart of a war,
He hears a Soldier's Prayer.

Let's pray for hope,
Let's pray for peace
I pray for you and you pray for me
I'll pray for heaven to hear what you say
All of God's children will find out one day
Deep in the heart of a war
God heard a Soldier's Prayer.

Well, sincerely, I like this song.
It makes me cry. Cry alot. BUCKETS. hoho!

Lord, I pray for hope, I pray for peace.
And I pray for the sec 2s SFA);
freak, Hasinah dear, let's keep our faith.

I miss you much);

{ 4:23 PM }

I'm gonna miss my pet mouse, Eel Siwel.
nevermind anyhows, all's over and all's done.
why am I sad? I guess I don't knw.

OKAY I'M A HAPPY KID.
my phone broke down, oh joy.
homework's still piling up, oh joy.
I'm broke, oh joy.

{ 11:18 AM }

Ahh, I sorta twisted my ankle.
And so I went to the sinseh kind of person,
well, he rubbed it damn hard and I've gotta keep going back to check up);
I asked him if I could skate, he said can but not recommended though.
heh, but I went anyways!
and I've realised it really hurts after skating but still, my love(;

{ 7:23 PM }

HEY MY DEAR TWIN,
please be okay! ily.

On the 17th, it was confirmation.
congrats paula, chloe and bryce and all those other peoples!

Ohh, on 18th, I went for Miss Ho's wedding.
yea she was quite pretty!
But before that we went to VIVO CITY at 2pm(;
with Eva, Sinying and Candice.
and then we met up with rab and aisyah(;
we had funn!

And then on 19th was snr's bbq. so we went too.
I LOVE THE ARCADEEEE.
except for the LIL KIDS WHO HOG THE MACHINE.
DURGGA, MY DAYTONA PARTNER!
let's go again someday!(;

I REALLY LOVE SKATING QUITE MUCH!
it's super duper fun!
GOOO SKATING CLUB!

{ 9:01 PM }

I'm depressed.

No matter what, now I'm still unhappy.
Yknw what? I don't love you no more.
I don't want to at least.

Why do I love you, don't even want to.
Why do I love you like I do, like I always do.
You should have told me, why did you have to be untrue.
Why do I love you like I do.

See you one day soon.

{ 9:00 PM }

well today was a INTERESTING DAYY.
despite my throat infection and sore throat and blah,
it wasn't noticable at all(;
it was so fun! seriously. right, Paula Tay.
Woodlands is a nice placee.
Just that you can't get a dress.

I'm in love with myself.

I'm sad. Very.

I'm going back to Hong Kong soon. From the 19th Dec till 29th.
I do hope even A SOUL misses me!
But still, I won't mind spending the rest of my life there.

Just another day

{ 8:50 PM }

exams are over already(;
after the physics on the 8th, we went out.
namely me, ziying and mayvin!



we walked to wisma from school,
walked through like a billionty places too,
then went to the japanese place and yea we ate alot
and we had cocktails!



And after that we went down to bugis to meet Mayvin's online seller.
then she got her black dress.
and then we walked around a whole lot,


bought this piece of chocolate. it was HUGE,


but my dad actually finished it yesterday.



and then bugis street!
SUPER RED PAUL FRANK WATCHES.
bling-ish red heart necklace(;
it's so happy-fying.



then we watched balls of fury. Ziying was so excited,
so she was like laughing super loud.
the movie ended then we went walking around again.
CELEBRATED ZIYING'S BIRTHDAY (belated since june)
and the cake was nice, celebrated in COLD STORAGE.



then a walk in haji lane, then i went home
cuz mayvin had to go to her office awhile.
i got lost in bugis junction though);
well, thanks to mayvin and ziying,
a new part of Singapore was opened to my eyes(;
MUCH LOVE(;

{ 10:36 AM }

heh, well, it's been a million years since I've blogged.
I've been going out with mayvin and ziying alot lately(;
my two loves who's been there full-time(;
I just miss those days when everything went by quickly and painlessly.
I really wish I could just smile back at you alright?
but i just can't do it.
Honey, I need you so badly
where are you when I need you so much.

It's as though I got no LOVE in my life.

Hey hearts.

Anyhow, I've did lots over this period of time.
Camp's over, holidays over, exams coming.
That's the life I lead. HOHO.
Oh and I did go skating once with Kerlene.

The way I see it, I've got lots of people worth erasing from my memories,
especially you, you, you, and THREE-EIGHT.
I HATE YOU, ALL OF YOU AND YOU AND YOU. AND THREE-EIGHT.

{ 5:33 PM }

well, i'm quite bored. so i'm so sad cuz wanxuan's so mean.

wan xuan said that only NOW does she knw i'm nice!

and then she's telling me to do this.



Rules of the game: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. No tags back.

1. I've hula danced in front of Mr Wong kan seng
2. I was supposed to pull this hawaiian flower neklace thing on Sir, but it got stuck on my head.
3. Ever since I came to Singapore, I've been wanting to go back to hong kong.
4. I think guys are weird.
5. I like to watch shows that make me cry and cartoons are still cool.
6. I always watch tv before exams.
7. Maths is my favourite subject but i still can't do it well.
8. I think matthew is naggy.
9. I like to wear pyjamas!
10. I hate wearing skirts.

I tag: Yejing, paula, kim, yvonne, the rest i don't knw lah.

{ 8:09 PM }

went out with mayvin and ziying after school today(;
tanglin macs brings back old times!
we totally "studied" and ranted.
and we superly complained about someone and somethings!
it had been SOOOOOO long since i've got to rant so much.
haha, i'm a happy kid again!
well we walked about awhile and then went home to study!
we spent like a millionty hours there(;

{ 5:40 PM }

well, nowadays i've been REALLY REALLY busy i THINK.
On sunday we actually sang super long for vocation fair.
they said they could hear like in particular one mike.
oh wells, so One Way was super weirded out.
nevermind anyways. well, don't knw lah, went home like four plus five.
either how, i think my whole timetable is screwed.
monday after school got cca.
tuesday got so many mock tests.
wednesday got remedial and tuition.
thursday got cca again.
friday got skating course also.
oh well, so after that i've got not much time left.
yea, goodnight. got tuition soon.

edit;
well, crying at the Foyer is a stupid thing to do so yea!
thanks latha plus yuji plus elizabeth and karishma.
and theresa also(;

{ 5:32 PM }

well, hello again three eight.
happy friday the thirteenth.
I still think you suck, but today's even worse.
I still hate you, bloody irritating fool.
You relish my sorrow, anger,
my full detest and hatred for you.
You seem to love my hateful glares, don't you?
well, be comforted to knw that
I HATE YOU MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE.
go ahead, piss me off. one day, maybe just one day, I'd snap really hard.
And when I do snap, you'll see how much I hate you.
you're a loser. Go ahead and scorn at me.
You enjoy picking on me anyways.
So go on, I'LL BREAK YOU IF YOU DARE.

{ 8:58 PM }

Hello three-eight.
I think I really hate you.
Besides being the unreasonable fool you are,
you are also the most irritating nuisance I can admit.
To me, you're just speaking rubbish like you always do to me.
Thanks for being a horrible person three-eight.

{ 11:16 PM }

well, last night they thought i had dengue.
cuz i had fever and another 5 other symptoms of it.
so at 11 plus, they brought me to mt alvernia hospital.
well, i got those weird blood tests and all.
stayed there for 4 hours seeing doctor, medicines and all.
well it wasn't dengue.
it was a bad throat infection and a very strong bacterial infection.
uh huh. then i slept alot and alot.
well, i'm not gong to eat the medicines.
they're pills so yea, i don't want.
goodnight world(;

{ 12:01 PM }

well, today went so many places that i'm too lazy to update.
either how, last part, was walking home
see the neighbourhood uncles,
then my dad stopped to have a chat.
uncle douglas asked me randomly
if i had a choice would i like to stay in hong kong or singapore.
well, that really set me thinking.
i think daddy and uncle douglas were shocked,
but i replied to go back to hong kong.
sure, i'm tied down to singapore,
but well, this place is a land of troubles much to me.
that's why i enjoyed pulau ubin.
it's peaceful, it was calm.
I felt so much more at ease. it was so much sweeter.
so what do i ought to feel?

{ 10:06 PM }

{ 1:46 PM }

i just came back from church camp.
it was quite fun. short but fun.
lucky it was short i guess, cuz it was one day after OBS.
was quite tired actually but still tried my best to be enthu!
i think i was quite successful at it! lol.
was really feeling like i was going to melt.
so the amazing race leg 1,
it was around singapore!
first stop: Changi Airport
second stop: Newton circus
third stop: botanic gardens
fourth stop: coronation plaza
fifth stop: ang mo kio hub
then they went back to church
but i went home to get painkillers.
back to church, bathe and dinner.
then games and all those stuff.
the next morning woke up at 5.30 for 7 mass.
could have woken up at 6.30 actually!
anyhows, mass and then had amazing race leg 2 in church.
we had some games and lunch after that.
session and then games and prize presentation.
went home after that(;

well obs is over alrdy.
and in pain);
anyways, i love RAFFLES(;
my watchmates are like LOVES.
so in the watch there's:
Khahliesah, Ain, Teran,
Hui Ching, Fei Xin, Jesslyn,
Thrina, Nicole, Alcina,
Beatrice, Man Li, Chen Qin and me.
plus Aza our instructor(;

Day 1.
went to school early in the morning,
then coach to punggol jetty.
and then motorboat to pulau ubin camp 2.
first day did all those admin stuff.
and learn to belay, climb the pole also.
pitched tents also , bathe, cook and sleep.
the night was damn short.

Day 2.
woke up at 5.30 and yea.
tent striked down, bottles filled.
had reflection.
anyhows, we tri yaked for i think 5 km in 2 plus hours.
campsite was so awful!
it was muddy and disgusting.
so difficult to pitch tent cuz the ground was so packed tight.
well, there were so many stones and it was so bumpy.

Day 3.
woke at 5.30am again.
quite saddening really.
we had to trek for like 17 km i think!
we walked 8 hours! with heavy bags.
the bags were like more than 30kg like that
and we had to carry the heavy tents
and our bottles as well. it's so heavy!
and well, we were so tired and well, walked so long.
nicole and teran both weren't feeling well.
so we cut short the trek.
then we camped at a beach.
a pebble ground beach.

Day 4.
From the beach, we rowed the boats to camp 1.
we went a round around the island to camp 1!
camp 1 was actually very very near
but we paddled so far till so much.
our boat really paddled hard,
we weren't slacking,
but we were almost always the last boat.
i bet it was cuz we were all damn tired
and we had VERY VERY little change of shifts.
it was so painful, all the blisters.
and well, i injured my right wrist.
the boat was hit by this huge wave in fast current.
the oar handle hit my wrist so yea.
i'm currently left handed.
well, it was so painful!
and then i started crying.
when i was getting off the boat,
the were trying to supprt me by holding my right wrist
so it was damn damn painful!
and i was going to hide it lahhh.
i stood at the side while they were pulling boats up.
then erm, aza knew cuz he was holding the boat when i was getting off.
then this other instructor figured out,
probably cuz i was crying and clutching my hand in pain ;/
he was like pressing my hand and all those weird stuffs.
then he went to do the boats stuff again and told me to sit down.
then my twin also found me.
then they were sort of crowding around me abit
so this other instructor approached.
he was so painful. he pressed the hand.
i wanted to scream lorh);
anyhows, i was brave and just bit my lips really hard.
well, they made me go to this medical centre,
but well, i didn't want to.
still had to go though and get my hand looked at.
the nurse thought it was a fracture. so scary!
well, RICE, ointment and bandaged.
lucky she was really gentle(;
anyhow, dinner was good.
it was good cuz:
1. it was cooked for us
2. it tasted much better than noodles and cans.
3. GOT COLD DRINK!
after dinner we trekked back to camp 2. night walk! no torch!
the bags were much lighter cuz we got rid of all the food.
i still felt like i was on the sea lah! floaty floaty!
pitched tents at night, bathe and all those stuff,
then had the reflection things again.
slept so well last night!
probably cuz we were all so tired!

Day 5.
"tent striked down, breakfast taken",
most oftenly used quote?
either how, we went to pack the store.
pack finish then go and "shop"
for those OBS shirts.
it was raining damn heavily so we played hello sally(;
i was like three dots or two dots, i forgot.
i'm a loser! haha!
then later on go hall do all those surveys
and evaluation forms all those.
then we went back to mainland, go back to school and then home.
so now i'm tired.

From the first day on OBS,
i wanted to go home so badly.
but well, just before leaving the campsite,
i felt this slight attachment to camp.
there was this feeling at though i just wanted to stay with my watch.
well, but it feels good to be at home now.
and i think i'm allergic to the mosquito repellent?
haha, so funny. i'm sleepy.
GOODNIGHT WORLD.
well i'm back from obs(;
and in pain);

anyways, i love RAFFLES(;
my watchmates are like LOVES.
so in the watch there's:
Khahliesah, Ain, Teran,
Hui Ching, Fei Xin, Jesslyn,
Thrina, Nicole, Alcina,
Beatrice, Man Li, Chen Qin and me.
plus Aza our instructor(;

Day 1.
went to school early in the morning,
then coach to punggol jetty.
and then motorboat to pulau ubin camp 2.
first day did all those admin stuff.
and learn to belay, climb the pole also.
pitched tents also , bathe, cook and sleep.
the night was damn short.

Day 2.
woke up at 5.30 and yea.
tent striked down, bottles filled.
had reflection.
anyhows, we tri yaked for i think 5 km in 2 plus hours.
campsite was so awful!
it was muddy and disgusting.
so difficult to pitch tent cuz the ground was so packed tight.
well, there were so many stones and it was so bumpy.

Day 3.
woke at 5.30am again.
quite saddening really.
we had to trek for like 17 km i think!
we walked 8 hours! with heavy bags.
the bags were like more than 30kg like that
and we had to carry the heavy tents
and our bottles as well. it's so heavy!
and well, we were so tired and well, walked so long.
nicole and teran both weren't feeling well.
so we cut short the trek.
then we camped at a beach.
a pebble ground beach.

Day 4.
From the beach, we rowed the boats to camp 1.
we went a round around the island to camp 1!
camp 1 was actually very very near
but we paddled so far till so much.
our boat really paddled hard,
we weren't slacking,
but we were almost always the last boat.
i bet it was cuz we were all damn tired
and we had VERY VERY little change of shifts.
it was so painful, all the blisters.
and well, i injured my right wrist.
the boat was hit by this huge wave in fast current.
the oar handle hit my wrist so yea.
i'm currently left handed.
well, it was so painful!
and then i started crying.
when i was getting off the boat,
the were trying to supprt me by holding my right wrist
so it was damn damn painful!
and i was going to hide it lahhh.
i stood at the side while they were pulling boats up.
then erm, aza knew cuz he was holding the boat when i was getting off.
then this other instructor figured out,
probably cuz i was crying and clutching my hand in pain ;/
he was like pressing my hand and all those weird stuffs.
then he went to do the boats stuff again and told me to sit down.
then my twin also found me.
then they were sort of crowding around me abit
so this other instructor approached.
he was so painful. he pressed the hand.
i wanted to scream lorh);
anyhows, i was brave and just bit my lips really hard.
well, they made me go to this medical centre,
but well, i didn't want to.
still had to go though and get my hand looked at.
the nurse thought it was a fracture. so scary!
well, RICE, ointment and bandaged.
lucky she was really gentle(;
anyhow, dinner was good.
it was good cuz:
1. it was cooked for us
2. it tasted much better than noodles and cans.
3. GOT COLD DRINK!
after dinner we trekked back to camp 2. night walk! no torch!
the bags were much lighter cuz we got rid of all the food.
i still felt like i was on the sea lah! floaty floaty!
pitched tents at night, bathe and all those stuff,
then had the reflection things again.
slept so well last night!
probably cuz we were all so tired!

Day 5.
"tent striked down, breakfast taken",
most oftenly used quote?
either how, we went to pack the store.
pack finish then go and "shop"
for those OBS shirts.
it was raining damn heavily so we played hello sally(;
i was like three dots or two dots, i forgot.
i'm a loser! haha!
then later on go hall do all those surveys
and evaluation forms all those.
then we went back to mainland, go back to school and then home.
so now i'm tired.

From the first day on OBS,
i wanted to go home so badly.
but well, just before leaving the campsite,
i felt this slight attachment to camp.
there was this feeling at though i just wanted to stay with my watch.
well, but it feels good to be at home now.
and i think i'm allergic to the mosquito repellent?
haha, so funny. i'm sleepy.
GOODNIGHT WORLD.

{ 5:19 PM }

OBS tmr); quite dead.
i'm scared, very scared.
today i spent my day in junction 8 with kerlene and gail.
haha, very long never go out with gail alrdy
and well, we met in a train so it's very coincidental.
it was cool.
i'm sleepy. if i'm still alive after obs, i'll blog.

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just now was youth cafe.
i had IMMENSE STAGE FRIGHT
cuz i can't sing for nuts nor dimes nor even to save my life?!
and i was treating the mike as a playtoy.
i was standing there next to angelina
who is a freaking singing pro.
and i looked like some idiot who didn't knw why she was there.
i was so afraid, with the
i'm-going-to-die-any-minute-now face!
and i bet no one could hear me.
gosh, i'm so embarrassed!
anyhows, i was probably going to run off stage alrdy.
and well, it was heartwarming to hear Father clapping there for every song(;
okay, anyhows when FINALLY, got off the stage,
i went off to the drinks there and drink and drink and drink!
and Ian is my waiter who makes me self service(;
my dear brother mann. haha,
after everything, packed up the stuff and left church.
then Ian sent me home, i snet him to the mrt station
and then i went home myself.
and there was this freaky guy walking behind all that while,
like some stalker or whatever lahhh!
i was so scared cuz his face was damn meann!
haha, anyhows, my dad came home soon enough so i could go in.
anyhow the songs are all stuck in my head now like a never-ending juke box.
play play play and now i'm not sleepy no more(;
GOODNIGHT WORLD while i attempt to sleep.

{ 11:27 PM }

well, it's been long since the holidays started,
and i've hardly accomplished any work!

anyhows, yesterday was interview and class bbq.
it was really fun and really hot/cold.
bbq was amazingly hot.
we were cooking and cooking.
and the grill was like a frying pan!
we were like "frying" chicken chop.
and Mr M has a girlfriend. (that was surprising)
so now i knw teachers have lives too,
beyond the face of an educator.
well, after grilling and eating and grilling,
we went swimming.
sauna-ing was nice, real nice.
it was the cold and hot pools!
and the security guard was real nice,
we were all swimming at 8 plus after dark
and he didn't come scolding and chasing us out.
we had tons of fun and all,
and marshmallows affect my speech!
bbq-ed corn is damn nice as well.
and baked potatoes are nothing without stuff to put on it.
it's interesting how classmates dress.
and many peoples were thrown down the pool!

oh, and the day before,
i went on my FIRST TRIP TO VIVO!
watched SHREK 3 with
rab, eva, aisyah[sp] and isabel[sp]
and i can't spell names very well!
anyway, VIVO CITY IS SHINY!
i mean like, the floor's all shiny,
and the signboards are shiny,
and the stuff inside's all shiny too!
it's really cool and SHINY.
they thought i missed cuiting alot. haha.
i bought a shirt too!
long sleeves and it's WHITE and PINK.
and the words on it hardly make any sense but, OH WELL!
i didn't knw it was I.P zone.
i always thought the shop name was L.P zone or sth.
so they were thinking that i was stupid/weird.
and they think i'm a kid!
was quite shocked anyhows.
they all dress so grown up and "their age",
while i was more of kid kind!
so i was told to act my age.

therefore, i must talk like this:
like, i was telling her like, totally?
she did not do that! like she totally did?
like what? she like, totally did that?
totally!

yea, so that's how i should speak.
anyhow, it was loads of fun, and it was gv max.
and well, i'm a BIT saddistic.
just a TEENY WEENY bit.
throughout the frog king's death,
i was LAUGHING AND LAUGHING.
yea, so because i was LAUGHING AND LAUGHING,
i bet they felt i was inexplicably evil!
but how could i help it!
it was so funny! it was like, he died and came back to life,
then he dies again and then a fly comes out of his mouth,
and then he eats it again! then he dies again!
it was all so entertaining!
and rabiatul's nice to lean on in cinemas.

saddistic little bunnies(;
okay that was quite random.
right on, goodnight world!(;

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yesterday was joel's birthday.



happy birthday joel(;



well, today is Pentecost Sunday,



happy feast day(;



anyhows, i don't like dizziness.

i've realised that last night!

haha, yesterday

me, kerlene, shaun, marcus and joel

spent the evening in the cathecist room

watching shows, it was fun i guess.

heh, the room's really cosy!

well, being alone at home is really weird.

i'm like still falling over myself so yea, haha.



oh goshness, so much homework!

i wonder why teachers set so much work.

it's like, what's a holiday with that enormous pile of homework?

that's it,i'll sleep today, start tmr!

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Today had combined training with st margs!
heh, it was INTERESTING.
and then after it i cabbed down with ee suan to thompson plaza.
we ate KFC for lunch!
and then i went to church for the ministry fair.
after that i slacked ard legion room.
and i slept, alot. went to thompson plaza again after that.
but then my dad told me to go home so i went home,
to find there weren't people at home.
yea, and then i threw up, slept for an hour,
watched tv and yea, dragged myself ard the house.
okay, and now i still feel sick but yea, oh wells.

combined training! should elaborate!
okay, went there really early with yejing!
YEJING HAS NO VOICE< GET WELL SOON(;
oh, after fall in was introduction and all.
and there were bonding games.
then footdrill in the parade ground.
then had quakedrill.
i was a DRUNK AND MENTALLY UNSTABLE person.
so i was screaming and falling everywhere
and kajiaoing other casualties.
okay, and then we had circuit training(games) after that.
I'VE GOT NOTHING TO SAY.
and after that was debrief.
alot of stuff lah, so yea.
then yea, anything anything.
oh and i've realised Kevin and Andrews are very fun to play with.
those two brothers horh, equally childish so it was interesting.
throwing double sided tape and bottles at each other!
it was majorly entertaining!(;

okay, this sucks, i feel sick.
i'm going to sleep.
goodnight happy world!

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i am freaking pissed with myself.
so pissed that tmr i'm going to buy charcoal.
i'm gonna lock myself in my room,
on the aircon and burn charcoal.
and then i'll barbeque marshmallows.
then i'll stamp on them!
yes, i'm really really pissed.

english: 50.5/100, C6. yes i almost failed.
chinese: 64.6/100, B3/4. it's dangling in between.
emaths: 69/100, B3. freaking one mark to A2.
amaths: 42/80, C6. THIS IS THE ONLY THING I'M HAPPY WITH.
physics: 46/100, D7. freak.
chemistry: 30.5/100, F9. KILL ME.
core geog: 32/100, F9. i got the same thing in common test. no, don't tell me "at least you're consistent", i'll scream and cry!
social studies: 19/50, F9.
elec. history: 26/50, C6.
combined humans: 45/100, D7. oh just shoot me.

what am i most disappointed with?
let me, guess. well, obviously chemistry?
common test i put in 1% effort.
i didn't study. and i passed. it wasn't that bad.
for mid years, i dare say i put in at least 90% effort.
i hand copied notes from the freaking slides and textbook,
i studied the workbook and pracbook,
i did my ten year series.
i freaking read my notes over and over, through and through,
studied damnit hard and what did i get in return?
A FREAKIN F9.
blame me for being stupid,
to studying like shit for a freaking exam.
i gave up my heck care attitude,
picked up my books and mugged,
and i failed, failed horribly.
thanks alot, alot.

well, thanks the many many peoples who were comforting me,
i knw it's not worth it to cry.
i practically cried for the whole time we were in the hall,
which was close to 2hours.
well, thanks peoples, i'm grateful for it, really(;

{ 11:22 PM }

ermm, i've got nth much to say.
well, thursday getting back results.
if i fail english, i'd cry.
if i fail chinese, i'll be ashamed of myself.
if i fail e maths, i'll be depressed.
if i fail chemistry, that won't be too bad since many people failed.
if i fail physics, my tuition has all gone to waste.
if i fail geography, it's quite expected.
if i fail social studies, i deserve it.
if i fail history, it's not surprise.
if i PASS a maths, I'll really cry and cry and cry!
so if anyone would please call me to comfort me on thursday, i'll really appreciate it!

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exams were over yesterday.
so yesterday had squad gathering at my house and everything.
had fun too(; quite entertaining.
anyhows, today had post exam activities.
the house games thing. then the wipe out.
i swear i didn't feel the ball but yea, okay.
well, after that had recess i guess.
and photo taking.
then we had that short meetup with mr tay.
i think he's really nice and sweet(;
quite sad he's leaving i guess.
anyhows, briefing stuffs and blah till 2.15
took bus home and all.
then i didn't bring key lahh.
so i was pretty much stuck out
but then i went to kerlene's house instead.
haha, and i've learnt to do various houseworks!
like changing sheets, pillow cases and bolsters(;
and then i taught kerlene how to burn soup!
okay, so we burnt soup in the kitchen.
claps! then tried cleaning up.
then her mom came home and was very scoldy!
haha, but she's so cute, the mother.
and the dog was squirming.
kerlene's dog is the ONLY dog i'm not afraid of!
probably cuz it looks like some "cute" distorted cat.
technically, all chihuahuas look like that.
oh, and then i went home after her aunt came home.
and well, i'm going to try to sleep alot these few days.
last night i ponned a maths tuition.
i went for physics, didn't feel very well
so i did the paper and slept.
and i slept for most of tuition.
and physics is more expensive than amaths so yea.
i went home and slept at 8 plus. like a pig(;

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[x] You like to eat chicken feet.
[ ] You sing karaoke.
[x] You've worn glasses ever since youwere in fifth grade.
[x] You'll haggle over something that is not negotiable.
[ ] You are a math genius.
Total: 3
[x] You take showers at night
[x] You avoid the non-free snacks in hotel rooms.
[x] You say "aiyah!" and "wah!"frequently.
[x] You save grocery bags.
[x] You twirl your pen around your fingers.
Total: 5
[x] You have been taught that wasting food is a sin.
[ ] Your dad thinks he can fix everything himself.
[x] You beat eggs with chopsticks.
[x] You like congee with thousand-year-old eggs.
[x] You have eaten moon cakes.
Total: 4
[ ] If you don't live at home, when your parents call, they ask you if you've eaten, even if it's midnight.
[x] You email/msn your Chinese friends, even though you're only 10feet apart.
[x] You can read traditional chinese
[ ] Your toothpaste tubes are all squeezed paper-thin before they are thrown away.
[x]You know what pearl milk teas are.
Total: 3
[ ] You bring fruit with you as a gift when you visit people's homes.
[ ] You have acquired a taste for bitter melon.
[x] You eat every last grain of rice in your bowl, but don't eat the last piece of food on the table.
[x] Your parents argue withother adults over the dinner bill.
[x] You love to use coupons.
Total: 3
I am 72% chinese

{ 8:15 PM }

And then she was gone

She chose to walk alone
Though others wondered why
Refused to look before her,
Kept eyes cast upwards,
Towards the sky.

She didn't have companions
No need for earthly things.
Only wanted freedom,
From what she felt were
Puppet strings.

She longed to be a bird.
That she might fly away.
She pitied every blade of grass
For planted they would stay.

She longed to be a flame,
That brightly danced alone.
Felt jealous of the steam
That made the air its only home.

Some say she wished too hard.
Some say she wished too long.
But we awoke one autumn day
To find that she was gone.

The trees, they say stood witness.
The sky refused to tell.
But someone who had seen it said
The story played out well.

She spread her arms out wide.
Breathed in the break of dawn.
She just let go of all she held...

And then she was gone.


I like this poem alot.
it's this poem from as told by ginger.
it's really simple english but yet its meaning's so deep.


Candles

That world seemed dark in light,
the candles flickered near.
The sun fell short of beams of rays;
as the moon left this sphere.

Her heart fell ten feet off
with her spirit clinging on.
It broke into those bits and pieces
while hope seemed to wander off.

Nothing offered solace
For that discontented soul.
The years passed through day and night
but no longer she could hold.

That night she left her hopes behind,
as the break of dawn drew close.
Unwilling for any further more,
the fire doused out,
just like that,
with void filling through, coursed all.


and a poem which i didn't get from the internet.

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my dear NS-ing brother! <33

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this survey must have a valid answer.
answers like dunno or not sure are not allowed.
Answers must be honest.
READY? Let's go!
#01. Would you mind if your guy is fat?
nopee.

#02. Would you want your guy to do house chores?
do don't do also doesn't matter!

03. What is the maximum age gap you
and your guy should have?
ermm. 3 years i guess.

#04. Would you mind if your guy smokes?
YES. i'll mind it alot.

#05. Must he get good grades?
nahh. grades aren't everything in the world!

#06. A muscular/mature guy or a childish/cute guy?
ermmm, childish/mature guy!

#07. Must he be popular to suit you?
nope!

#08. Would you allow your guy to join gang?
nooo. of course not.

#09. Must he have perfect eyesight?
noo, what good does perfect eyesight have?

#10. Must he be perfect in everything?
nahhh, firstly, no on'e sperfect. secondly, they'll be snobby.

#11. Will you be furious OR worried if
your guy gets into trouble with the DM?
worried.

#12. Must he be taller than you?
yea, and that's so easy!

#13. What is the first thing that
attracted you to him?
he really has to be niceeeee.

#14. Does how much he loves you matter
or as long as you love him is enough?
how much he loves me matters, ALOT!

#15. Would you allow your guy to show
tantrums on the elderly or worthy of respect?
I guess not cuz that's like so rude, then he won't be nice alrdy.

#16. What if your guy's ex still loves him?
he'd better not love her back.

#17. Which of his character or looks
will make you leave him?
if he gets all meaniee or likes another girl!

#18. Must you be his first girlfriend?
nope. cuz if that's the case, i'll never get married!

#19. After marriage, must you be together
or follow him back to his country?
i think it's too young to decideeee.(;

#20. What will you do if his friends bully him?
i'll let him decide what to do.

#21. What is the most important thing
you seek in your guy?
he should be really sweet and attentive!

#22. Would you rather your guy be a
studious or bad boy kind?
studious.

#23. What if your good friend likes your guy?
he'd better not like her back!

#24. which 5 ppl would you like
to do this survey?
mayvin, yejing, lye lye, yuin yi, anyone lahhh.(;



and then i got this off the net!

1. Tell her she is beautiful

2. Hold her hand at any moment . . .
even if its just for a second.

3. Hug her from behind

4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.

5. Wrestle with her :)

6. don't go hang out with you ex when
she is not with you,
you might not relize how badly it hurts her.

7. If youre talking to another girl,
when you're done talking,
walk over and hug her and kiss her....
let her knowshe's yours and they aren't.

8. Write her notes or call her just to say "hi"

9. Introduce her to your friends . . .
as your girlfriend.

10. Play with her hair.

11. Pick her up (she loves it)

12. Get upset if another guy touches
her and she doesn't like it

13. Make her laugh

14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.

15. If she's mad at you, kiss her.

16. If you care about her, then TELL HER

17. Every guy should give their girl 3things:
a stuffed animal
(she'll hug it everytime she goes to sleep),
jewelry
(she'll treasure it forever),
and one ofher t-shirts
(she'll most likely wear it to bed)
or sweatshirts sprayed with her cologne!!
and flowers or something occasionally.

18. Treat her the same around your friends
as you do when you're alone.

19. Look her in the eyes and smile.

20. Hang out with her on weekends

21.Kiss her in the rain (girls love this)

22.Kiss her just for the heck of it

23. If your listening to music, let her listen too.

24. Remember her birthday and get her something,
even if its' simple and inexpensive,it came from YOU.
it means all the world to HER.

25. when she gives you a present on your birthday,
Christmas, or just whenever,take it
and tell her you love it, even if you don't
(it'll make her happy.)

26. Always call her when you say you
will, it may not seem like it,
but it does hurt her and makes her
think you don't care so call even if
you can only talk for a minute.
Girls don't necessarily have to have
hour long conversations every night
but its nice for us to hear your voice
even for a quick hello.

27. Give her what she wants

28. Recognize the small things . . .
they usuallymean the most.

29.dont hug her friends or your friends
that aregirls cause she'll feel left out.

30.hang out with her whenever you are
freeand u should be free to hang with
your girl friend all the time

31.If u care about her...SHOW her!

it's really sweet lorhh!((;

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mine; clara's

hotel room

day 2

outside a cave temple

outside another cave with my bro and coconut!

i also went to the Lost World of Tambun

it's this water theme park. but since i was wearing a swimsuit,

so i'm not gg to upload any pics.

day 3

cameron highlands! with oscar (clara's bro)

me and my brother at the tea plantation

cactus farm!

aquarium! ;D

cosmo's world at night!

day 4

twin towers!

at this chocolate place! chocolate dragon!

oh, then in the end, when coming back to sg,

the coach's tyre went flat so yea,

so reached here at like 11+ instead of 9.

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me and haslinda ;Dyejing and me with the motherly love and blahsquadmates! haha. it was taken last year.wan xuan and my clique ;D she was so unwilling to take the pic!me and mayvin with ice cream cones at SWENSENS! ;Dflowers from last second day of school.and mr teo! lol.

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haha. smart mayvin decided to display her

WONDERFUL photoshopping skills and

then deleted the original. bleagh! haha.

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haha. okayy. so pathetic. haha.

didn't blog last night cuz i went to sleep ;D

to replenish the hours of sleep i've lost! haha.

alright and well, now it's so horrigible!

post camp blues! cuz cuz!

well, 40.2 degrees high plus no voice!

rahh. can't even go out anymore! haha. nevermind ;D

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the haze's really bad! oh gosh.

i took pictures from the comfort of my house ;D

the blocks next to mine!















the ITE. looks moutainy!














the evil hazeee.

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happy children's day!
it's a children's day for everyone
cuz we're all young at heart! haha.
okayy. i stayed at home
and studied in the morning.
well, not really study lorh.
since i ended up on the phone with matthew.
then my brother was craving for subway.
so we went the newly opened
subway at junction 8.
okay, then after lunch,
my brother went to the library,
while i went to popular
to buy paintbrush for art exam.
then on my way back home,
saw Amy and apparently
the legion ppls were there too.
haha. okay, so weird! and
everyone was in RCIY shirts.
haha. i feel so... OBSERVANT.
i caught a glimpse of ahem's back i guess.
haha. but saying it this way
makes me sound like some crazy stalker ;/
anyhow, went home, study, ballet class.
okay, me and glenda met at the office,
wanted to go mini toons cuz 60% off.
but since her dad was gg to j8 too,
we crossed the road and sat at the
playground pretending to be gangters!
but we weren't good at it cuz we were
just standing there and laughing and talking! haha
after that we went for class.
then i said happy children's day to everyone
and ms nonis was like
"isn't it supposed to be youth day now!"
haha. and then i got this blister
on my toe from pointe work!
but i continued with pointe work
and now the skin peeled
and it's freaking painnnn
like !@#$%^!!
OWW. gosh... i'm gonna plaster
my toes from now on!
even if it isn't evironmentally
friendly and wastes money!
ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow!
okayy. it's still !@#$%^ and it's alrdy an hour!
anyhows, later on gg out for dinner
cuz today's siti's off day!
and i still got that pukey feeling.
when is it gonna wear off!
or perhaps it's just some psycological effect
oh wells, i'm gonna think abit shoe to wear tmr!

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Bernice Yuen
AJC
CGS
12 Dec `92
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